I want...

I want to fly. I want to feel free. I want to belong. I want to feel again. I want to love. I want to be loved. I want to hold someone in my sleep. I want to be held by someone in my sleep. I want a place to call my own. I want a guy to call my own. I want to be famous. I want to be missed. I want a carefree life. I want to be strong. I want to bale to be my own boss. I want to be known by everyone. I want to be able to help whoever needs help. I want to be able to cry. I want to be able to laugh. I want to be able to sing. I want to dance. I want to play. I want to act. I want to eat. I want to drink. I want a happy life. I want MY life. I want my dogs back. I want my mom back. I want a normal life. I want a best friend. I want any friend. I want children. I want to be married. I want to be an important person. I want to LIVE. I want to DIE. I want to give life. I want to take a life. I want this. I want that. I want EVERYTHING. I WANT nothing. I just NEED it ALL. I just CRAVE it ALL. I just want to BE.

Too Little? Or Too Much?

After all this time, after all these years,

What have you given me but a bunch of tears?

You say you don’t say, you show.

But can’t you see?

I want to hear it.

I need to know.

Well, my love, I can’t see.

I never could with you.

You blinded me till I could see no more

You deafened me to everything.

Till all I could hear was my screams.

You killed my feelings,

Till all I could feel was pain.

Even that stopped making an appearance.

I am so numb, so lost.

So alone.

Why? Was I not good enough?

Did I care too less?

Did I do something wrong?

Say something wrong?

Or maybe I said too much.

Always said too much.